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they should charge extra for the seat i just grabed!! it just makes my day if i get that seat-sofa!!and no m not leaving before next 6 hrs!! m gonna make the most of it - "time must pass-life must erode on that sofa - i wish i could own it"
allrite so here i order 2 plate of CF with extra scoops of icecream and yes i m lil over-excited to meet him!!he made me wait for 38 mins!! and yes i ate 2 plates in anticipation! 39 min that 6:45 pm he entres pulling his jeans up and showing his tommy hilfigure to few nymphs in the first row .. !!
he entres in his blue stripe-close add type shirts...
and i stare and ve this stupid grin which is obvious-he looks away!! and smiles
i put my sunglases on[few more stare back at me!! i look towards the glass wall and breahe as if soaking every ray of sun!! he winks and says "lets order the Choc Fantasy" here commes the third plate!!]
here after 20 min wat goes round..
and wen it got all over...
he turned and walked away-pushing the sliding door and making it obvious to others that something went wrong! i ve my glasses on ... i opt for staying lil longer!
5 min after i fathom wat happened i miss the sunshine!
i take my glasses off
and walk out the same way
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v all pack r baggages once in a while nd prep r selves yp for the expedition to no were....thinking....the new will be the best nd brightest for us....considerings v choose it from the clutter of fresh choices.....now be it shoes,shampoo,rings,routes,music,discs,toiletpapper ,friends,schools,last bench in the 1st row.......v always choose thinking this will gasify nd comfort us with the best of d product capabilities....
but r v expecting to much at times or is it just perfect....to rely on the choice i made.....nd then repenting in the future nd trying to figure out the UNDO button in the SO FHKED UP REAL LIFE......
i saw wish i was a Gennie of the i dream of Genni.....or a laptop were i could ctrl alt del most part of ma life nd refresh using a green tab right on my head......for i just want to refresh.......
i wanna be a comp in my next life
i don't care if u label me as a comp or a net addict....coz i agree i m an addict!!!!
nd i do face the consequences.....life planning my blog in ma mind while using earbud.....or sleeping....instead of planning the poj presentation...
but yaa.....the real life sucks.....its full of burden nd more...nd ma crush is so much in love wid his gal.....fhkin bitch dont u dare hurt him....dont....but still i sit wid him nd wright a card for her nd book a diner for 2!!!!as long as i can see him dance nd stretch his lips nd smile....
ctrl alt del.....is wat i keep reminding myself...
i guess all of linger in r past.....nd repent the choices ......dont tell me again that i m the confused good 4 nothing vagabond.....good for nothing shit........
alright m off ve to buy ear buds.........
chao
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I sit between the wild waves and white ocean my rock is not steady... as it seems i have grown up nd it can not take curs weight anymore; its time to look up and tread ahead with d rest -who r spreading their hands and folding and tucking their wings behind them.; and dip n soak their body in the salt water....
some get their wings clipped so dat they can swim and get themselves to the right rock instead of finding the easier way of flying nd reaching the shore; so its the enmeshed by reality around me ; but its so vague that I rump it like a dream! Only way to fathom it is to decipher it with the reality...and quench the last drop of saliva with the horror of truth... as i sit alone novice in the region of trade nd territory i c many ple procreate expressions as they look at me nd! i can make out the invite nd the mime of the flow rnd me...the invites to be part of the throng nd void ....but honored that amidst all this ....someone is ready to except u as their own! but now i stand on my one feet fluttering my wings for no good...i ve to leave the old rock it was the best pink shell; nd covered nd composed me to d best warmth of the inner shell which only made me feel safe in the opaque haze of the thin skin on me... vindicated nd nourished its time to take the flight .nd leave for good…..to find the best in the void of cruelty i too like rest fold my wings nd open my palm analyze it nd plan to use it for good so i take a deep breath pull my stomach in c myself dry for the last time....nd now i jump into the salt water i can feel the salt nd itch me from hair to toe nd water smooth nd shiny its not white i realize now... i feel light nd now i wanna breath i cant i m in deep; i c those mermaids who found their steady rock in the basement nd they welcome me ...somehow they know how new the person is to the ocean i cant open my wings as i had promised nd yes i ve stapled them behind so i ve to use my hands ...the presence of wings remind me that i m different from these underwater species coz they dont ve wings nd i dont ve fins so i struggle my way back up! nd i c the shine of the far rock were everybody wants to go but those who tried never reached or never came back to tell how the yellow rock is! i aint fascinated with the yellow rock so i swim nd cut the water from my small palms towards the colder nd darker side of the water.... again i c ple crowding over the mediocre nd bigger rocks nd they flood over each other i try to find solace aint used to of other amphibians arnd me …….. its hard I m in the salt water from 5 months… nd now I want to dry myself so I rest as a zombie on someone’s rock nd learn that -they look paler nd tired nd wrinkled with experience nd weather more than me ….so I talk it’s the first time I touch some one else nd they feel just like me ….i suddenly wrinkle nd stretch my lips ….......nd I c nd feel the same on the 5 others they bring their palms together nd cup my face nd kiss on forehead …I appreciate but now is the time to leave this rock- I want my own so again I grow in the wildness of the universe nd search a right planet for myself ….. nd in the end I miss the 3 rock from the luminous light …. but no I ve to find my own to be cont……........….
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|  hostage
to arms to hugs
to aspiration to the welcoming world
to the family to love to the eyes of only love
hostage
to the bond of delight to the proud eyes
to the warm loving breath
chucles nd to the freedom of air...
hostage
to the school to friends to the rules
to the enviornment to the toughts
to the pride of many ,
to the attitude which is
not worthy any...
hostage
to the competion to the values,
to the own delima ,confussions,
diplomacy,and illusions;
to the sourroundings, i just want to know...
hostage
to own ways,
laughing being free on every step,
only to be capured by something new everyday,
growing the space
making it tougher to face;
hard as it gets not realizing i am there
hostage
now at a very imp stage
ve 2 leave break boundries
so use to of being caged dat leaving the captive is
going to be my own desissoin no one else
i design the truth now
but once again a hostage
hostage
to age....
to the strangers
to the eyes which will always remain strange
hugs,taste,room,breath all .....
r strange???
hostage
to the new age
resposible 4 new age
sharing it with old stranger...
who is more den my age
i am in middle
so captured from 2 sides
but this is not my side
well its difficult to escape
hostage
to timing which will age
realizing that small hostage was
roomy enough to understand this present age
i was my own hostage
i am my own hostage
well v all r some way someones hostage
coming out is not easy
realizing at time is.......
wake up u r a hostage
well now ,i am hostage
hostage for ever
but do i realize the time
it all seems to be a mime
i lie flat on bed facing the roof
now again the cylce begains.....
hostage
to life which left weird que unanswered
i plan to find ans in next
though beliving lived each day
nd passed all night
solomenly i lie
hostage to my tired eyes
hostage to end of life which is true.......
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thinking i could atlest fullfill this kids wish!!!
she smiled and told me this with a glitter in her eye and i was lil numb!
